Are you are crier? I don't mean like a cry when you are sad or in pain. I mean the kind when you are feeling pride or joy or emotionally touched in some way and for a moment your chest swells and the tears start coming and you can choose to choke them back or let them fall.
I am a crier. I make (mostly failed) attempts to choke back tears of pride when I watch my teenage son perform on stage. He is so freakin' talented. I bawled when he won an award for "mechlechkite" aka being a mench (Yiddishism that really has no English translation, basically an award recognizing him for being a good human being). I have choked back many tears when my tween has shown kindness to children who were less accepted, to his sister the first day he met her and every now and then when I catch him just being utterly kind and giving, not realizing just how awesome he is.
Last Sunday I choked back tears just from watching CD be so happy at her birthday party with all her friends at a local museum for young children. I wish I could post pictures of her on this blog. Pictures of her dressing up with her friends in tutus and them dancing in a circle hugging each other. Pictures of her singing, in front of everyone, "I am four years old now, I am four years old now. . ." Pictures of her giant smile as she wore her princess crown and her pretty dress and said over and over how much fun her party was. She is such a happy child.
Yesterday I choked up while talking to my teen about this as he kept me company while I did my rounds picking up the younger kids. There is nothing in life that brings me more joy or beam with more pride than seeing my children shine, seeing them happy and confident and seeing them grow into these incredibly good human beings.
In Jewish we call it "shepping nachas" again, no real English phrase says it quite like what it is like in the old language but it loosely translates to "scooping in pleasure/satisfaction" (I know it sounds kinda silly in English). They are the best moments a parent experiences in his or her life and I am shepping a whole lot of nachas these days.